Can't stop thinking of the fun times we had.

Is that stupid?

I liked it when you woke up a bit and wanted a cuddle. That was awesome. When I'd say something stupid and you'd laugh at me. And I'd want to not laugh but couldn't help it.

Hehehe makes me smile now thinking about it.

Sitting here in the boiling heat of the stuffy night. With a stomach ache, a cup of cold black tea and a tray full of ash. Through it all it makes me smile.

Please remember me for the fun and the laughs. Not the upset and sadness

I've tried to make you smile and laugh. I've tried my best. I hope  you have happy memories of me and not sad ones or bad ones.

I'll always miss the fun of you 'just being there'.

Everything was more fun with you.Its like all my friends are fun to be around generally. I am quite a sociable creature despite hating the actual nature of the world and despite the fact that I can't do shit at the moment until this business with my tummy is sorted.

So its not like I'm short of fun friends to hang about with. Or indeed friends who wish to fuck me it appears. So thats not the reason I miss you.

Dunno. Theres just nobody else like you. You think you're dull and boring and plain but you're so so not.

We said goodbye and you'll never want to see me again. But god damn I will miss you. There are not enough words to describe all the things I'll miss about you.

If that makes it seem asthough I care too much or that I'm obsessed with you or that I'm mental or that I should just get over it well then...Fine. Think that.

I'm none of the above. You're just special, and you'll never believe me but you are and I met you by accident. But those people worth knowing, those people like you. Don't you know how rare you people are? I mean christ. It's just awful.

Needles and Haystacks. Really.